7 pounds in a little over a month....

With increase walking, hoping to shed more.

One month and four pounds ago....

Yes, I'm down four pounds. I think the Biggest Loser has messed with my mind. Like I should be down 40 pounds in a month or something. Grr.

It has been a month!

I'm actually surprised at this milestone.
I haven't weighed yet. I keep putting it off.
Perhaps tomorrow, I will get my nerve up.
Cravings are still a major struggle.
Wondering how long until that goes away.

Almost...

I almost caved today. Eric brought home supper. (Mexican food) AND soda AND a donut dessert.

Know what I ate? Burritos & Water. Yes, I survived, and I didn't give in to the soda or dessert temptation. AND I didn't gripe at him about it. (Please, don't remind me how horrible burritos are for your health. I'm just glad I didn't fall completely off the wagon.)

Go me! :-)

One thing that worried me, it was such a strong temptation. Just hope I can keep being strong. Really unsure how long I can keep this up. Just being real.

If I can....

If I can hold on for a few more days, it will be one month from when I started.
I decided not to weigh myself again after all, so that I can weigh at the one month mark. Surely, it will show a difference and help keep me motivated.
For some reason, the cravings are stronger than they were in the beginning. I must be going through some kind of hormone thing or something. BUT...so far, I'm just biting the bullet, and drinking my water. Ugh, I sound like a martyr.

Almost 3 weeks

It's so strange sometimes. The cravings will be very intense, but if I just hold on, they pass. I'm very proud of myself for not giving in yet. I always say "yet", because I can't promise anything for the next hour/day/week/etc. It's too overwhelming if I do.

This morning, Eric said that he was seeing a difference in my face. He thought it looked thinner. I think he was just trying to be nice.

Anyway, tomorrow should show a definite difference.....I hope.

Which do I believe?

The evening I arrived at Pa's, I weighed myself, and it said that I had lost NOTHING!!!
BUT...
The next morning, I weigh and it says that I've lost 4 pounds.
NOW, which do I believe?
Guess I'll try to hold on for one more week, then see if there is any difference.
I don't want to fail, but I also want to give up. :-(
Just being real.

Almost 2 weeks

Tonight I go to Pa's and I'll weigh myself tomorrow. It will be the 2 week mark.
I'm still caffeine and sugar free, so far.
It's amazing how many people try to get you to quit something like this. They want you to lose weight, but when you try anything they say things like:
- Are you sure this is a good idea?
- Don't you want even just a little bite?
- Oh, a little bit won't hurt you.
- Maybe a little sugar is good for you.
- Etc...
It's a battle not only with myself, but I'm fighting those around me, in a way.
I'll be back on here in a few days. There isn't any internet service at Pa's except through my phone, and I don't know how to update this from my phone yet.

Day 11

I'm thinking after the 2 week mark, I'll just keep track weekly, then monthly and so on. If this is to be a lifestyle, then it won't be only daily. It's just right now in the beginning, very daily. There are so many times that I want to give up and give in to the temptations around me. I'm just grateful that I keep making it day by day. We'll see how it goes. :-)

Day 10

Just 4 more days, then I weigh and see where I am on this thing.

Day 9

When does the yuck/tired feeling go away? When do I actually start to feel energetic?

Day 8

I need proof that I'm doing the right thing.
This is ridiculous!

Day 7

God help me. Seriously.
I thought the withdrawals/symptoms/yuck would be better by now. Today is worse than yesterday. Isn't each day supposed to get better?
Not sure how much longer I can keep this up.
Very emotional today, too, which isn't helping.

Day 2 & 3

Seriously, I know this is the roughest time, but it's miserable.
My body is detoxing, yet I need to be clear headed enough to work.
My legs feel extra heavy. Walking feels like I'm going through wet sand.
I'm hanging in there, but I don't see how I can do this for a lifetime at this moment.
Seriously need more energy. Exercise like this is brutal.
My bones feel like they are on fire inside.
Okay, I'll quit whinning now.
At least I haven't fallen-off-the-wagon, yet. Even when people eat chocolate in front of me.
Even when Eric drank a Pepsi in front of me. Grr!
I need more than my stubborn will-power for this.

Sleepless...beginning Day 1 of Sugar-free

Be forewarned: This blog/journal will not have perfect grammer, sentence structure, etc. In fact, it will probably be an English teachers nightmare. You have been warned. Now, read on.
I'm opening up on here because I need to be accountable to someone. Even if there is no one in particular reading this, in my mind, I'll stick with it better.
Well, now it's official. Eric, Tiger, Jerry, and I are going sugar-free.
Tiger did it during his police academy training camp, so he's "okay" with the idea. Eric sees it as absolutely necessary for his weightloss goals. Jerry is NOT happy about it AT ALL. I'm just a mix of feelings about it. I'm excited, and I know it is absolutely the right thing to do. My only concern is getting through the first few days of withdrawal....not only mine, but all of us at once. Yikes! Batten-down-the-hatches!!!
I'm sleepless due to my brain going ninety-to-nothing. Lots of things on my mind, and they all decide to bombard at once.
I've been journaling (privately) about things that make me want to eat. (Scary to even admit that on here.) Some of the things really surprised me. I won't go into great detail, just to say that "fear" has A LOT to do with it.
Well, there you have the beginnings of day 1. Let's see how this goes. I'm hoping for lifestyle change, not just diet.
Please, leave comments and suggestions here. I need all the help I can get. I'm just flying by the seat of my pants here.

Since....

Since no one reads this blog, it might be a safe place to put some other thoughts. :-)
Just a thought.

Really, nothing much going on. Nothing that I care to share with the entire world anyway....

Guess I'll just keep using this blog for pics and stuff. Who knows.

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